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Confession

come let us reason together

 

 

 

As faithful readers of this blog know, I have never been a fan of Michael Voris, but I must say bravo to his response to an alleged smear attempt by villains, (the New York Archdiocese has denied the allegation of Voris), within the Church:

 It involves the sins of my past life all committed prior to my reversion to the Catholic faith. We have on very good authority from various sources that the New York archdiocese is collecting and preparing to quietly filter out details of my past life with the aim of publicly discrediting me, this apostolate and the work here.

I have never made a secret that my life prior to my reversion was extremely sinful. I have said many times — in public — that I was in a state of mortal sin, and had I died, I would have been damned. I also revealed these sins were of a sexual nature and that they occurred over a prolonged period of time. I did not reveal the specific nature or details of the sins, because when I returned home to the Church, I did not think that a full public confession of details was necessary in order to start proclaiming the great mercy of God.

Perhaps that was a wrong assessment. I don’t seriously know. Perhaps along these years I should have been revealing of greater detail. That, I now think so, but more on that in a moment.

Whatever the matter, I will now reveal that for most of my years in my thirties, confused about my own sexuality, I lived a life of live-in relationships with homosexual men. From the outside, I lived the lifestyle and contributed to scandal in addition to the sexual sins. On the inside, I was deeply conflicted about all of it. In a large portion of my twenties, I also had frequent sexual liaisons with both adult men and adult women.

These are the sins of my past life in this area which are all now publicly admitted and owned by me. That was before my reversion to the Faith.

Since my reversion, I abhor all these sins, especially in the world of the many many other sins I have committed having nothing to do with sexuality. I gave in to deep pains from my youth by seeking solace in lust, and in the process, surrendered my masculinity.

Many of you know the story of my mother’s prayers and sacrifices and pleading to God on my behalf that I give up my sinful life and return home to the Church. As a last resort, she prayed to be given whatever suffering needed so that I would be granted sufficient grace to revert. It was shortly after that prayer that her very early stage stomach cancer was detected, which she died from a few years later.

During the last year of her life, I began to change by beginning to frequent the sacraments more often. When my mom died, I pledged at her coffin that I would change. I said, “Mom, what you went through for me, you will not have gone through in vain.” I returned fully and completely to the Faith and close to two years later, I began this apostolate.  

Go here to read the rest.  It is so easy to point out the sins of others and so hard to acknowledge our own.  However much the pain and humiliation,the need for repentance, confession, and amendment of life is essential for us all, especially those of us, and I most definitely include my self in that category, afflicted by the sin of pride, the sin by which Lucifer fell.  Dramatic public confessions are not in the cards for most of us, but a frequent un-sparing examination of both conduct and conscience is essential for each of us if we are to escape the easy downward path.

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Donald R. McClarey

Cradle Catholic. Active in the pro-life movement since 1973. Father of three and happily married for 35 years. Small town lawyer and amateur historian. Former president of the board of directors of the local crisis pregnancy center for a decade.

17 Comments

  1. In order to be open and honest about ourselves and our weaknesses, we have to actually trust God. We know the devil is wily and have complete confidence that he will come against us in a myriad of ways…whether we try to keep a secret or openly share our struggles, that ancient still-vigorous foe will find a way to snare us and incite others against us.
    Michael is a strong example of a man first snared by pride and self will who by the grace of God sees, admits and repents – now himself out there like a human fleece, in love and trust.

  2. Good post, Don! I saw a similar one at the blogsite of St. Corbinian’s Bear. I posted this comment there:
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    I have always thought that Michael Voris had been homosexual or done homosexual things, and frankly, I never gave a damn. So freaking what! I am a drug addict and an alcoholic (recovering). How the heck is my past any better? Or the past of any of us? The Big Book of AA says on page 69:
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    “We all have sex problems. We’d hardly be human if we didn’t….”
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    Anyone out there without sin able to cast the first stone? Therefore, as for Michael Voris, Acts 10:15 and 11:9 applies:
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    “What God has cleansed, you must not call common.”
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    Regarding the Archdiocese of NY, now that its plans of calumny are laid waste, of course it denies a conspiracy to defame and ridicule Michael Voris and CMTV. 
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    PS, I think some things Michael Voris has gotten into – like geocentrism – are nonsense and I do not always pay attention to him. But he is a good man and his Apostolate is doing the Lord’s work.

  3. Why shouldn’t Michael show his evidence? Why does Michael get a pass? So far we have seen unsubstantiated accusations. This is not an attack on Michael but a plea for fairness.

  4. All things are possible with God. It’s amazing the lengths to which God will go to recover one of his lost sheep, and the people he puts in our lives to make that happen. Mrs. Voris was another St. Monica. Thank you Donald for this story.

  5. I thank God that He is my judge, and not man.

    For God knows our hearts.
    Man needs evidence. Man can not fully understand the heart. Man is insufficient and unable to hold a suffering heart in it’s sinless hands, and the one who took upon our sinfulness is the only one who knows the penitent’s heart.

    Henry. Pray no man asks you for evidence for your repentance. Pray.

  6. Henry…his evidence may well slander various third parties. I doubt Mr. Voris will alow that, but….in the future, some may come forward voluntarily.

  7. “Regarding the Archdiocese of NY, now that its plans of calumny are laid waste, of course it denies a conspiracy to defame and ridicule Michael Voris and CMTV.”

    The Archdiocese has denied it though it is possible that it was not officially sanctioned but planned by officials of the diocese without higher approval.

    A difference without distinction in the end.

  8. I still don’t like the guy, but you know, if angels in Heaven rejoiced over his return to the fold, I can’t really be a jerk about it, can I?

  9. Lot’s of folks have known about Michael’s past for a long time. It was inevitable that it would become public. But there remain mysteries about him, e.g., why he will not speak out about Pope Francis questionable theology and generally confusing statements. Despite this weakness I think Michael does good work and will pray for him as well as all good Catholic bloggers.

  10. It seems rather doubtful to me that Mr. Voris would come forward with such a confession if something compelling was NOT in the offing. Also, this type of thing, the repenting of past sexual acts, especially if they be homosexual, is hardly in vogue today.
    Were he to wear his folly as a banner, he would be loudly acclaimed in the US Church.

    The overall account rings with a deeply pained and heartfelt candor—Does one talk of one’s mother’s death, and a vow to amend one’s life over her casket, as a light matter?
    I think not.

    His church ideas aside, I rather now have a new-found respect for Mr. Voris.

  11. Well, I actually watched the video in question. I do recommend it…the story of his mom’s prayerful sacrifice is good. The boy seems strongly determined to persevere in truth.
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    I liked the way he calls out Satan in the end, reminding how the evil one strikes at the heal the BVM, while she will crush his head.

  12. Regarding the Voris situation:

    I do not say this is always the case, but tarring a person is an effective means of silencing them. “Outing” is often done by the very pink brigade themselves, when the opportunity presents itself.
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    I was shocked a few years ago when a teacher and a friend at a well-known Jesuit university was rolled-up and sacked for propositioning a male student. I had never known his possible furtive orientation,.. but this is a reason why you don’t go drinking with your students (of any sex, I would think).

    However, the hypocrisy and the zero-to-60 speed of the dismissal in mid-semester, even, was breath-taking, as well as the lightning-quick broadcast to other schools by the quite-hypocritical lavender mafia. However, after all, he was a very conservative philosophy teacher, and this was the chance to permanently tar his reputation. A little bit like what it sounds like was in the offing against Voris? Let us just say, it is a familiar technique.

    One Jesuit called me after the incident, deeply troubled about the whole thing. “Do you know Fr. G. was jumping up and down on a couch in the community rec room, exulting about the dismissal of Dr. Z, shouting over and over again, “We finally got the bastard, we finally got the bastard!” I nearly dropped the receiver, speechless.

    “The end justifies thee means.” –Trotsky

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